finally, my long awaited break. my 3 years at Nanyang Polytechnic seemed to pass me by in a flash... which is actually pretty sad when i think about it. had a hell of a time there. may not see many of the friends i knew there again. especially the girls... sob, sniff... (haha, i know i'll definitely meet the bunch of dogs i hang out with alot in time to come.)

here i am now in the US, settling some offical business, learning driving and emo-ing, wishing i had someone to confide in. haha. drawing the whole day everyday doesn't seem like the chore it was last time anymore. in fact, its the closest thing to flying than doing anything else gets. its like a release, like i don't need anything else when i'm drawing. not even girls (but of course when i put the pencil down, the carnal hunger comes back. haha. ok i know what u dogs are thinking. 'this loser doesnt even have a girlfriend and he talks bout girls like they're his dinner' lol).

my insomnia's not getting any better... i lie in bed thinking bout alot of stuff everynight... things i dont wanna think about. the point of our existence and DEATH seem to be a recurring topics. how does it feel like? there are so many ways to die. majority seems painful. when will it be my turn? sometimes i hope it'd be before my loved ones so it wouldn't hurt to see them go first. ok no more morbid stuff. haha.

i was a bit turned off by deviant art at first because of my screwed up attitude. but now i find it a cool site to hang out at. i'll post my sketchbook as soon as i get to use the scanner.